I just wanted to write abt journaling, and how important it is! I was reading in my journal the other night, the one i wrote in after Joel died, There were so many things i had forgotten.  A few stuck out the most to me though and that was the ones that talked abt what joel had said and thought abt our kids.  Our kids will never again in this life time hear their dad tell them how much he loves them or how great you are. Joel would come home everyday from work to see  savannah and sometimes the other two in the window waiting for him, she would get so excited and run to the door when she saw his cruiser pull into the driveway, he would get down on all 4's and crawls in barking like a dog... ( we named him milford, and he sometimes slobbered  ) lots of screaming and giggling would go on for a while then he would pick her up and kiss and swing her around and tell her "daddy missed you so much today" 

  Someday my kids can look back on these journal entries and remember how much there dad loved them! So get journaling all of you!! its so important!!